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Introduction: The Wind at My Door (02:01)


Filmmaker Pierre Goupil Participates in an Earth Day demonstration in Montreal. He ponders what it means to have 7 billion people on the planet, and alludes to problems that arise from living with bipolar disorder.

Goupil's Eviction (06:26)

A placard explains three types of madmen according to Fulani legend. A friend helps Goupil sort and pack his belongings. His 15-year-old cat is destined for an animal shelter.

Goupil's New Home (03:49)

Goupil moves into an apartment. Many people attend the Casa Obscura Association workshop. Goupil meditates to stay centered and reflects on a recent stay at the Royal Victoria Hospital.

Goupil's Mental Health (05:08)

Goupil discusses what it means to be a danger to himself. He and a friend allude to an episode where Goupil went to the park naked. Goupil talks about his enthusiasm for making models, being a child of the 1960s, and an artist’s role in society.

“Celui Qui Voit les Heures" (03:02)

Goupil and cinematographer Michel la Veaux recall making the 1985 film that Goupil wrote and directed. La Veaux admires his friend’s creative process and wonders if he might still be making compelling films if not for his medication.

Family Visit (04:46)

Goupil takes his medication. He and his mother discuss Goupil’s dad and revisit Goupil's sickly childhood. The director thanks his mother for her patience, joking about the worry her children have caused.

Social Gathering (04:28)

Goupil smokes a cigarette, appearing deep in thought. He is similarly pensive in a scene from his 1979 film, “Robert N.” The director attends a birthday party where he discusses having a moment of clarity with a friend.

Goupil's Self-Reflection (05:55)

Goupil recalls selling "L’Itinéraire," meeting many people, and feelings of alienation. He walks through the Occupy Montreal site and buys a copy of “Zero Zero” before visiting the book’s author, who details his own treatment for bipolar disorder.

Mental Health Conference (03:34)

Goupil attends a presentation on bipolar disorder. One speaker draws a correlation between having the disease and creative potential, while another explains the disorder’s neurological roots. Goupil describes being served with papers while in the hospital.

Archived Work (07:08)

A 1985 film depicts a young Goupil painting. The filmmaker examines boxes of old notebooks and illustrations at the Cinémathèque Québécoise. He elaborates on his reasons for making movies and living “between reality and film.”

Losing Touch with Reality (05:34)

A medical professional describes psychotic symptoms that someone with bipolar disorder may suffer. Goupil enters the Allan Memorial Institute in his 2000 film, “La Vérité Est Un Mensonge.” He describes a delusion that caused him to believe his cells were replaced by ants.

Online Resistance (04:39)

Goupil makes a call to install Internet and basic cable service, and he sets up his Mac computer. He visits a painter friend and they discuss the merits of social media and the destructive nature of capitalism.

Protest Participation (04:20)

Goupil attends a demonstration related to the impending loss of Quebec’s CineRobotheque. The director recalls being arrested and roughed up during a 1981 protest. Casa Obscura is raided on Oct. 2, 2012.

Distrust of Authority (06:40)

Goupil and a friend build a bookshelf. The friend has become wary of police since he was roughed up in the October arrest. The two discuss police brutality and marginalized members of society.

Hospital Visits (05:03)

Goupil has become used to checking into the Royal Victoria Hospital. He has established a less hostile relationship with the staff and learned coping techniques.

Credits: The Wind at My Door (02:17)

Credits: The Wind at My Door

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In this intimate and touching portrait, filmmaker Pierre Goupil (Celui qui voit les heures, La vérité est un mensonge) speaks of his experience living with bipolar disorder, revealing his uneasy relationship with his illness and his journey as an artist in a society that struggles to accept those on the fringe. He has spent more than 25 years trying to cope with his illness, stubbornly refusing to fit into the box of normality. Today, the chemical straitjacket that stabilizes his condition also deprives him of his emotions. A product of the 1960s intellectual scene, Goupil continues to question the world and fight for global solidarity. Written and produced in collaboration with Rénald Bellemare, The Wind at My Door celebrates life amid suffering, while reaffirming the importance of social ties and political commitment. Tackling the themes of the precariousness and vulnerability of those who battle this "illness of the soul," the film is an ode to the freedom of individuals over the powers that would enslave them. Like our ever-changing seasons, the filmmaker's struggle is both the terrible winter and the long-awaited spring of renewed creation.

Length: 76 minutes

Item#: FMK190493

Copyright date: ©2014

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